that when I would love to be asleep my brain just won't turn off? It probably has something to do with the fact that I spend my days with an 11-month old that hasn't quite figured out how to talk yet; so my days are spent having an never ending dialogue explaining to Todd exactly what I am doing. When I say exactly, I mean exactly.
"See Todd, I am taking this fork out of the dishwasher and putting it in this drawer because it is clean and needs to be put away. That's what we do when things are clean. Put them away..."
In all of this explaining, I rarely get a chance to tell him about the funny thought I had in the shower or the random message I got from an old friend on facebook or the many reasons I have felt so grateful. Matt works so hard and often comes home exhausted so the last thing I want to do is bombard him with randomness from day, which brings us to the reason I can't sleep. I mull over all these things in my brain once I lay down and with all these thoughts there is no time to sleep. Not a complaint by any means just an observation/insight into why I am sitting here at a quarter to twelve in a dark house writing rubbish by the light of my computer.
The randomness of motherhood.
3 comments:
Could you be related to brother Matt perhaps??? He of course has the same malady. Gotta love the brain that won't turn off! Love your new bloggy banner! Whatever they are called :)
funny, you and i are on the same page with this lately. check out my feb posts. late night, full brain, check!
I always figure if I get to sleep before midnight it is a miracle. I call the sleeplessness a need to "wind down" from my day. It's like a personal debriefing, if you will. I find reading helps me to turn off my mind from all those tickling thoughts and helps me to sleep.
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